Ms Quick, It is not about people thinking anything about you at all, after all nobody knows who you are. We are responding to what you have written. We are all human beings and as such we all do make mistakes.....but the secret is admiting your mistake and moving on. Nobody is holding a grudge here, we are simply stating things the way they are.(or to put it more precisely; stating our opinions) And as for problems we all have them, it is about knowing what your problem is and learning to deal with it. No need for a mental breakdown just over some debate. The problem is not about you opening your mouth at all, because it is a free world and one can say whatever pleases them.The problem is thinking over your words before saying them, because once you have done that there is no retracting them back. Allah gave us a brain for a reason;thinking. I on my side I am not saying anything about you coz I do not know you and do not derive pleasure in belittling a fellow human being. I am merely responding to your allegations. Ginny Quick <[log in to unmask]> wrote: Hello... If anyone has any questions about who I am, why I've said some of the things I've said, or done some of the things I've done, or if anyone has any questions about my honesty, intelligence, integrity, or anything else you'd like to ask me. You're welcome to email me privately, as some of you have done, or call me, my mobile is 931-721-6727, you can either call me or text me, either way. This discussion has gotten way, way out of hand, a long time ago! The best thing I can do, is take a step back, calm down, and just walk away, which is what I should have done a long time ago. Regarding some past comments on my blog, I've tried to find them, but they are no longer on my blog. If someone else has a copy of them, and they'd like to post them here, it's completely up to them. Regarding the comments Kabir referred to on my blog, all I can say is, much like this discussion, they were made in anger, and frustration, and they never should have been said at all. The first mistake I made during this whole thing was even daring to open my mouth and comment on such a sensitive issue as racism, in the first place. The next mistake I made was sharing the original message and subsequent posts related to it with people off the list. The next mistake I made was continuing a discussion with someone, when I was already angry and upset. I should have known when to say when, or at least, I should have stopped when I felt myself getting angry about it, or at least upset. I did not do that. And now what has happened is that this has blown up into something it never should have. I mean, this is a simple article we're talking about! And yet words are flying back and forth! It really is childish and immature on my part, to continue this discussion. Kabir and I just plain, flat-out, simply don't agree! It should have been left at that, and it wasn't! Am I a liar, maybe, am I a hypocrite, maybe. But I'm human, and I make mistakes. And I have made a fairly big one this time! It's times like these, when I go off on a really bad tangent, and make statements in anger, that I really do, honestly, take a good long look at myself, and the bad aspects of my character, and yes, I do start to wonder about myself. I get frustrated! Really, really frustrated! I don't know why there is racism, I don't know why there is prejudice! I can sit ant and guess why. But I don't know! But anyway, anyone is welcome to call or email me, though I'm not sure my writing is making much sense. I'm just ready to put this to rest. I'm tired, I just plain give up. I'll concede that I'm human, maybe I have double standards, maybe I'm hypocritical. Maybe I'm a liar. I sure don't know anymore. It's funny that I like to think of myself as a certain kind of person, but maybe I'm not that kind of person at all. I guess when you get called a liar, hypocrite, piece of shit, asshole, a nothing, ugly, stupid, and just about anything else in your life, enough times, you really do start to wonder if it's true about yourself. And when people do actually comment on your intelligence, and good character, you just want to tell them how wrong you are, that if they really knew you, that they'd think differently about you. It's an overwhelmingly depressing feeling, when you see, just actually what an awful person you are. And yet, no matter how much you might want to change yourself, you just can't do it, or you feel you can't do it, no matter how hard you try. Anyway, all my life I've had to explain myself to people. If it's not because I'm blind, it's something else. So all my life, I've felt I've had to be on the defensive, always having to prove myself, both to myself and to other people. Anyway, I'm straying off into a topic which has nothing to do with anything that's been discussed these past few days. It wasn't my intention to hurt or degrade or stereotype anyone. However, everyone on here is free to think anything of me that they want to. I'm too tired, and angry, and upset with my own actions these past couple of days to really even try to defend myself and my character to people anymore. So on that note, I'm hitting "send" now. Think what you will, I can't really do much about it, I don't think. 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